Second thoughts, second class
A point was driven home to me yesterday and I have come to a realization.
I'm a marginalized, second class citizen where I am now.
Yes, I don't bring in the big bucks. Someone else has that role.
And with that comes the "perks." My cases are second priority. And my "biggest" clients get shafted at my expense. So basically, I still do most of the work alone for my own cases, and then be expected to clean up after the others, especially for those who deliver the big bucks. And I'm even expected to prioritize the "big money" cases over my own "small time" cases.
For a while, that seemed to work for me. I was contented in playing the second-class partner.
But there are signs that this status will be driven home in my face even more in the days to come. The signs are, as the cliche goes, written all over the walls of our new office.
So now, I'm really at this classic crossroads: be the proverbial "big fish in a small pond" or the "small fish in a big pond."
That's a big one. But let me think about it.
On the one hand, being the small fish has been financially rewarding. But the disparity is beginning to be discouraging.
On the other hand, I have survived being a solo practitioner for many years before joining a firm again. Not so financially rewarding, but there is no feeling of being marginalized, from the office furniture to the office attire.
So what do I do now? Let me think about it some more... but I think you know where I am leaning.
I'm a marginalized, second class citizen where I am now.
Yes, I don't bring in the big bucks. Someone else has that role.
And with that comes the "perks." My cases are second priority. And my "biggest" clients get shafted at my expense. So basically, I still do most of the work alone for my own cases, and then be expected to clean up after the others, especially for those who deliver the big bucks. And I'm even expected to prioritize the "big money" cases over my own "small time" cases.
For a while, that seemed to work for me. I was contented in playing the second-class partner.
But there are signs that this status will be driven home in my face even more in the days to come. The signs are, as the cliche goes, written all over the walls of our new office.
So now, I'm really at this classic crossroads: be the proverbial "big fish in a small pond" or the "small fish in a big pond."
That's a big one. But let me think about it.
On the one hand, being the small fish has been financially rewarding. But the disparity is beginning to be discouraging.
On the other hand, I have survived being a solo practitioner for many years before joining a firm again. Not so financially rewarding, but there is no feeling of being marginalized, from the office furniture to the office attire.
So what do I do now? Let me think about it some more... but I think you know where I am leaning.
transcription by Punzi @ 2:07 AM
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